naaaqqiiiahh

2011-02-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today, mum and i talked bout guys.. I asked mum, how do we noe if tat guy is keen to be with me or not.. Mum answered, tat guy must have patience towards me, never ever take advantage of me, respect my pride... Tats the important part.. And well, mum knew almost every guy tat im fren with.. Its important for her to know with whom i befrens with.. I used one of my ex as an example.. He got tattoos.. But he managed to win my mum's heart, be a loving and caring bf, faithful to one.. However, mum adviced me not to find someone tat has tattoos.. Some sort like bad impression.. No matter how good he is.. Mum adviced me to find someone tat is professional, eventhough he smokes or wadever.. Well, mum knew tat i smoke but she really really wan me to quit! Its not only bad for my health but also a bad impresssion wen people ard happened to notice me. In another word, guys, no matter how bad they are, they definately wan a woman to be professional, a true woman! Even a womanizer wans a good wife.. As for me, i really wan to amend.. Not now but soon.. I wont wan to be toy ard with.. Its really hard to find a good guy.. 1st date, they can be good.. For example, they fetched u fron wherever u are, they pull the chair for u wen u guys went dinner or wad.. And the next date, they did none of tat.. Because wad, they are the type tat just want to impress u on the first date.. How stupid! Duh~
Thus, get to noe tat person well before anything if u dun wanna regret.. Observe them quietly in ur own way.. Not control, OBSERVE.... Haha! Im stating all this based on some experience.. :)

2011-01-20T01:31:00.004+08:00

whats actually stated in the letter.
To: My Beloved Nurul Naqiah
In the world today, its so hard to see a girl like u b... There's alot of quaities in you tat other girls doesn't possess... Maybe, im jsut lucky to have you as my gurl or you can simply call it fate. Im sure tat every single guy out there would want to have a girl like u too b..
Wateva it is dear, our past is history and our future is uncertain. But one thing for sure is tat...I love and cherished you wit all my heart and soul from the moment tat u accepted my love dear. You are the best thing tat has eva happened to me dear. My love for u is so real and sincere tat i'm willing to lay down my life just for you. To me, you are just like sumone god sent to guide and help me amends. I'm willing ti amend my ways for the sake of sumone whom i love dearly! I can live without oxygen but not without you dear... Even a second feels like hours without u by my side b. Only then did i realised how much you really meant to me..
I would neva have the heart to see you cry nor hurt you bad coz i really love you and you meant the world to me dear.. And lastly, i just wanna wish you a Happy Valentine's Day!! Love you lotz! -140209

2yrs has passed.. well, i cant forget what he had done for me.. his love and dedication towards me.. my rship wit him only lasted for 3mths. but many things happened within tat period. firstly, parents didnt agree about me being with him. frankly, he got tattoos and piercing. but his willing to buy a concealer to cover his 'liang' and small tattoo on his hand. he took out his piercing. he tried everything to win my parents heart. especially to my mum. mum really love him alot. he took really good care of me. i didnt even drink or smoke when im with him. but then everything screwed up when he went to Brunei. i cheated behind his back. i was blinded by that guy.. i was really foolish! and i regretted it. alot! oh well, whats past is past. and now, im gonna concentrate on my life. im kissing the future bebeh!muacks~

2011-01-19T18:31:00.001+08:00

mum used to say to me. if i wanna find a man, find a good one. find sumone who have the future, have the ability to take over my parents responsibilities, who can take good care of me like how my parents took care of me through thick and thins. who will bring me to right path. sumone who didnt take advantage of me. accept me for who i am. and make sure that the man that i choose to be with for the rest of my life, im the second woman he will only love till eternity. and of cos, the first one was his mum. hence, i better heed my mum's advice.
so that's the reason why i stay single for now. to find the right one. and make sure that my mum likes the guy that im with later. <3

2010-12-16T00:16:00.002+08:00

When u smile at me.
I noe its from your heart, i noe you will do for me
what no one else would do.
And if i dun tell you, I Love You as often as i should,
deep down inside i noe you do

2010-12-05T02:24:00.003+08:00

HOLA HOLA ~
okay actually i tot of blogging for awhile..
cos its been quite some time since i last update my blog..
well, let me sumerised things up abit about my life..

let me start with work life..
okay im still working at Maybank Tower..
i still got few more weeks till i finish my contract there..
its by end of December!
WOOOHOOO!!
cant wait ~
*countdown*
i hate my work eventhough its kinda slack..
im getting sick and tired of interacting with customers!
pfffttt ~

okay next, about myself..
im not feeling well recently and i dunnoe why..
since november i think?
few weeks ago i was hospitalised as i had a very bad headache..
can bear with it anymore so my parents sent me to the hospital..
a new hospital, Khoo Teck Phuat Hospital at Yishun..
its much more convinient there!
hahaha..
well, they scan my brain, x-ray chest
and the worst part is they injected my spine to take
some example with the fluid...
results shows that theres nothing wrong with me..
maybe due to too much stress.. =.=

next, family..
nothing much..
sometimes good sometimes bad...
dun wanna touch about this matter so much..

lastly, love life...
HAHAHA !!
still solo bebeh ~
like wow right im still single..
6mths and im still mingling ~
thats because i wanna choose the right one..
and i also dun wanna talk much..
secret.. ssshhh ~~

okay i guess thats all i wanna share..
ill update soon ..
i guess?
hahahaa

much LOVE!
XOXO ~

2010-12-05T01:49:00.005+08:00

hello bloggers ~
okay this is just a short post..
i just wanna post my dearest Zyraa's old photos..
just as requested..
sorry gf lmbt upload..
terlalu busy beb..
okay these are the pictures..
actually theres more..
but aku malas nak upload..
byk nah..
hahahha !
all this is mostly last year's pictures horr ..
okay thats all !
Goodnite ~
I LOVE YOU GIRLFRIEND ^_^
SEE YOU SOON ~
ANYTHING BEEP2 KAY ~

2010-11-14T21:01:00.004+08:00

heluuu my darlings !!
miss me ??
hahahaha ~
its been a long time since i update my bloggy ..
busy with work and personal life ..
well , alot of things happened ..
life , full of ups and downs ...
dun wanna elaborate much on that ...
and in fact , im happy with my life now !
hehe ~

im surprised with myself as i had been solo for almost
half a yr ... wow ~
because why ....
im used to have bf all the time ..
last time , the longest ive been single is only for 1mth
and below ..
hahaha !!
now , no more like tat hor ..
must choose the right one ...

HEY IM BORED !!
home alone lah today !!
nothing to do ..
house chores done ..
what now ???
play game lahhh ..
what else ...
SUAAA TEROONNGGSSS ~

KAY BYE BYE !!
MUUAAHH ~

2010-09-28T01:45:00.001+08:00

I am afraid to love, and yet I love you.
My fear is like a wall I walk right through.
The wall is there, and yet it doesn't stop me.
I need it still, and yet I still need you.

I know someday we will be in a field
Surrounded by the blessing of the sky.
I'll dance with all the freedom of pure joy,
Needing you without a reason why.

But now I'm still afraid that I might lose you ,
That you might not accept my desperate need .
You make me laugh and cry and be completely ...
You are the sunshine that lits up my life ..

2010-09-22T01:38:00.003+08:00

this fellow is crazy ...
he is a FUGLY BEAST , MONKEY ,
IDIOTIC ANJ , LITTLE OLD SUNSHINE ,
RABBIT , BEAVER ,BAPOK !!
he was damn irritating ...
looking at the sky at night and sang
like a mad guy ~
and wondering when he will become prince charming ...

ZURAIDI IS A ONE SMALL LITTLE SUNSHINE !!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~

okay bye !

2010-09-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

hello darlings ...
IM BAAAAAACCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK ~
sorry for letting my blog dead for quite sum time ..
im too busy ..
or perhaps , lazy to update ...
NYIAHAHAHA ~
cos nothing interesting to update ...
my life was such a bore ...
*yawwnnn*

wooohooo !!
raya is coming in a weeks time !!
cant wait ...
so yea .. been busy for tis few weeks ..
clean up my home sweet home ..
helped aisyah and Mr. Beast paint their house ...
nie mcm aku ley keje part-time ngn org cat2 dinding ahh eh !!
HAHAHA !!
and im extremely exhausted ..
maybe cos im sick ?
hell yea !!
im down with fever and running nose ...
got it from mum and sis ...
how sad ...

okay BUBYE !!
TOOOIIINNNK ~

2010-08-22T02:26:00.002+08:00

sometimes i dunnoe what i wan actually ..
wad i noe is i dun wanna get hurt by some 'animal'
anymore ...
its been awhile since i go tru my solo life ..
boring ?
i cant deny it .. so hell yea !
but i cant just pick anyone ..
i must choose the right one ..
HOW MISERABLE CAN IT BE ?
when people thought that i will get hurt again ..
and i wont have a lasting rship ...
DUN CURSE ME OKAY !!
hmmm ..
but wadeva it is ...
i shall let the fate decide ...
i wont rush into this kind of commitment ..
well , maybe its not my time yet ..
one day .......
i shall look forward to it ...
:)

2010-08-19T20:11:00.002+08:00

Even though we are no longer together.
And Im no longer consider you as my lover.
My feelings mixed and mind confused.
My body feels misused and abused.
I can't let you go even though I want to.
My thoughts are always consumed with you.
I try to move on but always lose interest.
Because of the feelings that I can't put to rest.
Why is your voice still ringing in my head.
Will I ever be able to forget.
All the time together we spent.
I just want these feelings to go away.
Somehow I know that forever in my heart they'll stay.
Even though I pretend that nothing is wrong and hide behind a smile.
Inside I am crying like a newborn baby .
When I am alone sometimes I call out your name.
But the response I get is always the same.
A response filled with silence that adds to my pain .
All I really want is for you to love me again.
Maybe I am just to dumb or too blind to see.
That you will forever be still hurting me...

2010-08-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

as years pass by ...
the "prince charming" was discharged from
Sunshine Chalet ...
he was happy ...
but when he look into the mirror he was depressed ...
his eyebrow merged and he grew alot of hair ..
he knew he's gonna be a BEAST again ...
and hence he became a desperado ...
he was accuse of sexual harrasment ..
and he was wanted by the police ..

SHOULD ANYONE SEE HIM , PLS CALL 123 ..

2010-08-15T20:17:00.003+08:00

people may think that the 'prince charming' lived happily
ever after ... but no !
at first , he enjoyed his life as a prince charming ..
but he was depressed when he found out tat he was PREGNANT !
he cried and cried and he sat down by the river and sang his
favourite song ...
"Tuai padi antara masa.... Esok jangan layu-layuan.."
he talk by himself ....
"handsome nye aku... tgk lah betape macho nye aku!"
and he laughed so loud !!
and den he stop and cried ...
"ya allah!! apelah nasibku kene macam nie!! sape yang dah
buntingkan aku nie!! tapi aku kan jantan"
and den came a Beauty and she said ,
"pasal kau sebenarnye perempuan.. ape yang ade kat kau tu smue
cume plastic...terima saje lahh"
he couldnt accept the fact and he laughed as he ran all over the
kingdom..
the Beauty pitied him and she called the
SUNSHINE CHALET ..
they captured him and made him stayed there ...
his head wire loosed and hence
he behaved like a small kid ..
but alot of people was weird with his changes ..
not only he became childish
but his head grew a long rabbit ear
and his nose became round and red ...

to be continued ~

2010-08-15T01:18:00.003+08:00

once upon a time , theres a Beast named Annie who
loves to doll up ..
he was so stress that he was a beast
and he end up in that kind of situation ..
he thought tat if he doll up , people will be attracted to
him but not at all ..
he believed that he was cursed ..
and he waited for the day till someone broke his cursed ..
he wait and wait ...
but to no avail ..
he almost gave up ...
he sat down by the river and sang ,
"Tuai padi antara masa.... Esok jangan layu-layuan...."
and he look his relfection on the water ..
he cant help it and run as fast as he could while crying ..
one day , sumone broke his spell and
TADAAAAAAAAAAAA !
he became Prince Charming and no more beast ..

and he lived happily ever after ~

THANKS FOR READING PEEPS ..
I HOPED TAT I MADE A NICE STORY :)

2010-08-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

hello darlings !!
first of all , would like to wish u all ,
HAPPY FASTING !!
jangan pagi2 bukak periuk ehh ...

okay ..
this guy up there is a new fren of mine ..
and we seems to be close ?
lol ..
i realised tat i cant stay stuck forever for things
that already happen ..
i must move on ...
many things awaits me ...
woohoooo !!
and and ...
i've already started to get over him ...
hope so lahh ...
wish me all the best aite !
muacks !!

2010-08-06T15:53:00.002+08:00

konnichiwa konban wa !!
i just feel like updating my blog abit ..
nuting much to say actually ..
i got the temptation to go to beach again ~
maybe im going alone tml ...

i'll be going to Vivo later and
shop awhile at forever 21 ..
cos today i got discount !!
and i miss my ex-colleagues !
feel like working there back ..
but dunnoe yet ..
haisss ~

to one particular ex of mine ..
stop cocking around wit me and said tat u love me
and wan me back !!
get lost will ya ?
i dun even love u ...
sumtimes u just dun understand simple english
wen i explain things between us ..
u spoilt my reputation ..
and u think i didnt noe izzit ?
u ashamed me by spreading things bout me !
argghh ~

to the one that remains inside tis 'red room' ..
AI SHI TERU ~ :)

2010-07-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

hello munchkins ~
since today i just sit at home doing nothing ..
i planned to prank alot of guys especially ..
i displayed my display picture in msn a picture of me and airis ..
then some of them was like ,
'hey!is tat ur baby..how cute !"
and from there i get the idea ~
and i said yes ..
in fact , they believed me !! hahaah
some even asked me out and bring 'my baby' along ..
some said they will still accept me ..
some asked where's her father and i said ,
'he m.i.a. ... dunnoe where is he'
hahaha !
and i was laughing all along ...
oh my ... my face really look like ive given birth to one meh ?
ISSSHH ~
noo lahh ..
wait till im married to my Mr. Right ...

certain things always remain unchanged ..
one question ..
WHY CANT I STOP LOVING HIM ?
soo weird ..

2010-07-27T16:59:00.002+08:00

hello darlings ~
today im a good gurl ..
cos i stayed at home and spend my time wit dearest mum ..
im still in a sleepy mode cos i slept at 5+ in the morning ..
and had to wake my sis for school .. wth ~
then sleep ..
then need to wake up again at 9 cos aisyah wanna go home ..
alamak ~
then i sleep till 3pm .. hehe
do abit of house chores ..
and here i am ...

oh yar !
early in the morning i received a miss call and a text msg from unknown person ..
here it goes ..
unknown : Hi, i'm Ida.. Can i ask u something?..
me : yes ?
unknown : u knw who am i?
me : nooo ...
unknown : k.. Hw u knw akib..?
me : from tagged .. hmm . Am i like disturbing someone's gf or should i
say wife ?
unknown : hmm .. Im his wife .. Hw long u been wif him? And plz dun
tel him tat i msg u ..
me : Im so sorry .. I didnt even know tat he's married . I just get to
know him about two days ago .. Luckily u found out about tis earlier ..
unknown : thanks beb !
me : thanks to u too for informing . im really sorry aite .
unknown : its ok.. u didnt do it purposely.. He is the one at fault..
me : hmm .. i wont be replying his msgs anymore aite . dun worry .
unknown : k, thanks !

phew ~
luckily this bastard's wife msg me in a good way ..
if not ... MANGKOK SKEJAP AKU ~
but well , im not surprise ..
by his age i can guess wads his status and the way he msg ..
hoho .. i aint tat stupid ..
i get to know tis kinda people for fun ..
nothing much . HUAHUA ~
oh my gee ~
tis kinda people deserve to go to hell !
nvm , believe in karma !
i wonder why guys tis days are like tis ..
TAK CUKUP SATU !
haiyooo ...
yes guys can marry four by most ..
but not all wife are willing to ..
i just hope tat i wont end up going tru tat kinda situation in the future ..
no matter wit whom i will get married to , single or a divorcee .
i will accept ..
as long he love me and he's responsible ..
^^

2010-07-27T05:02:00.001+08:00

demi cintaku padamu , kemana pun kau kan ku bawa ...

2010-07-23T16:14:00.003+08:00

hello cuppycakes !
today i feel like blogging ..
haha

suddenly i miss spending time wit these two particular fella ..
we laugh like crazy ..
gossiping in the middle of the night ..
so much fun !
if only we can do it again ...
tat fateful night ..
so much memories ...
how i wish we stay like tat forever ...
damn ~

its too late to turn back right now ..
but i hope tat one day , we shall meet again ..
hmmm ~
pressure lah !
mum kept asking about u ...
and i dunnoe why ..
i told mum bout u ..
bout ur past ..
wads ur status all tat ..
u had kids ..
the weird ting is , shes not mad at all ..
she seems calm ..
its hard to get u off my mind u noe ..
cos ure the only person tat im soo patience wit ..
im totally a diff wen im wit u ...
there must be sumting special bout u ..
lol ~
but well , hope tat we could be frens like usual ..
i noe i wont forget u ..
:')

2010-07-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

hello darlings !
the guy up there , just friends ehh ..

nowadays i always think bout my ex ..
tis one particular ex ..
heard tat he's back into wad he used to be last time ..
wads wrong wit him ...
u think tat theres no more meaning for u to live ?
is tat it ?
come on .. tis is not they way ..
firstly , think ! u have a family of ur own ...
think bout them ..
wad will u tell them in the future ?
of course u need to tell them something that makes
them proud to have u right ..
but look at u now ..
u didnt even make the effort to change urself ..
u just gave up !
tis is not the end of the world ..
i knew tat u had ur prob ..
a big one perhaps ..
but u have to balance it wit ur life ..
ur future ..
just think bout it aite
i still care for u ...
no matter how u treat me last time ..

okay enuf bout the ex ting ..
just now i read an article about Adam dan Hawa ..
interesting to me ..
http://www.darulnuman.com/mkisah/kisah010.html

2010-07-10T13:21:00.004+08:00

once upon a time i was falling in love and now ,
im falling appart ..

certain things are meant to be unsaid ...
if i had the power to change everything ..
i would had stop myself from knowing him ...
cos indeed it hurts ..
trying to forget someone u love is like
trying to forget someone u've never met ...
its hard ..
but nothing is impossible ...
when someone u love went missing for out of a sudden ..
u wished for a final goodbye ..
but it hurts more to have a final goodbye ..
knowing tat he wont stop u from going away ..

its a nightmare when ure trying to be happy ,
go on with ur life ..
trying to find someone new ..
someone to rely on ...
when suddenly he look for u back ..
he makes u feel like imsonia ..
when he said tat he wans u back in his life ..
im lucky tat i didnt accept as till now he doesnt even show
me tat he sincerely wans me ..
i guess tat all those words tat he said when he
was DRUNK ~
drunk people wont realise wad they said ..

so goodbye~
thanks for hurting me TOO many times ..

2010-07-07T00:06:00.002+08:00

hello precious !
first of all , i would like to wish my lil sis
a HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ...
wah da 16 ehh ..
sorry no present for you ..
cos i need to save up till i get a new job ...
so ill just buy for you choc aite ...
okay tats all OINK2 !
study hard for u N level pls ...

okay !
just now , accompanied lulu sent bby to school at limbang ..
eventhough my eyes was swollen cos i cry alot the day before
due to some reasons ..
i still went out .. hehe
so while waiting for bby to finish school ,
we ate at Mcdonalds ..
then slack under the void deck ..
315 fetch bby ..
sent her home and slack at lot 1 ...
5+ lulu need to go for dance prac ..
so i go home ..
decided to spring clean my room !
tat looks like .... i dunnoe wat to say lahh ..
i spent 4hrs cleaning up my room ..
o.0
threw away 3 big bag plastics full of rubbish ..
can u imagine tat ?
oh well , cos my room had alot of stuffs ..
i felt so happy after cleaning up my room !!!!

okay toodles ~

2010-06-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

hello darlings !
its been awhile since i really update my blog ..
been busy wit life ..
and also not feeling well recently ...
just been discharged from hospital yesterday ...
no alot actually noes bout it ..
aisyah had been a very concern bestie by coming down to visit me ..
thank you so much !
and also mum ...
thanks for being there for me ..
these are the only two person tats very important in my life ..
cos i believe , no else actually cares bout me ..
huhu ..

its not easy going tru things in the future
cos we dunnoe wad will happen later ...
in love matters too , we wont noe ...
we dunnoe if tat sumone truely love us or not ..
we dunnoe wads their motive ..
wad we can judge is true the person's action ..
for example , u were there , lying down ...
struggle to get well wen ure really sick ..
u were hoping for ur love one ..
but end up , he or she didnt turn up to be by ur side ..
whereas ,he or she were out there having some fun ..
to think back , how would you feel ?
if i , i would take a choice to forget him ...
cos theres no meaning for u to cling on to sumone like him ..
true enuf ?
tis was just an example aite ..
well , another example ...
tat sumone controlled ur life ...
but u cant controlled them ...
its not fair right ?
if he or she were to love u , they wont do tis ..
trusting each other is important ..
no trust no love (:

okay enuf of this ..
i wanna siap !
wanna meet my baby A ..........
ARIFAH ! haha

2010-06-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

i just dun understand why im so patient wit guys ..
especially wit tis on e particular guy ..
sumtimes his words really stab my heart so hard ...
but i dunnoe why i can still lingering wit him ...
i just feel tat i wanna get rid of him forever but its really really hard ..
and why the fuck should i still love him !!!
im even not sure if he had tat feeling for me .
but tru his actions , he dun seem to ..
why oh why !!
it hurts to be tis way ...
wad had i done to deserve all tis ?
being good to people , people took advantage of me ...
i trust people , people treat me tis way ...
i guess i should change myself .
i should be more firm , and not trusting anyone but myself ..
i dun give a fucking care if people wanna hate me
after i had changed ..

haisss ..
had to express tis out here cos i had no one to talk to rite now ..
aisyah slept already ..
i cant stop crying while expressing tis out ..
im such a cry baby ..
i noe ..
i just cant stand it ...

2010-05-30T01:11:00.004+08:00

hello darlings ...
sorry for not updating for quite sumtime ..
i was too bz wit my stuff and im also lazy to update ..
hehe !
Saturday, 29th May , im off ..
so i went to batam wit mum and sis ...
but i didnt enjoy much as less den 24 hr went there wasnt enuf for me ..
i didnt buy anything ..
i only bought perfume for myself , 'sumone' and also esah ..
and i also bought kerepek pedas to bring to work for colleagues !
i had my nails done ..
French Manicure ..
actually i tot of coloring my hair but den mum say dun nid ..
pffft ~
so yea , i didnt even had the chance to shop for clothes ..
nehmind ..
will be going there again one day !
who wanna tag along ? ^^
ure welcome to do so kay ..
one thing i dun like going to batam is , the mas kang there were soo flirty !
everywhere i go , they will disturb me ..
i noe lah im megan fox ...
HAHAHAH !
DAH DIAM ~

i need to tell u guys sumting !
i put on weight !!
argh shit !!
i seriously need to lose some weight siaaaaaaaaaaa ~
but i just cant coz im too happy now ..
wen im happy , i really eat alot ...
sumone make me sad lah pls !!
hahah !
nehhh ...
i dun wanna be sad ...
wen im sad , ill cry non stop ...
wen i cry , i dun have the appetite to eat ..
wen i dun have the appetite to eat , i'll fall sick ..
so troublesome ..

psssst , things are going on smoothly ..
errr , i guess ?
wadeva it is , i wont tink too much about it ..
JUMP JUMP GELEK GELEK !!
weeeeeeeeeeeee ~

2010-05-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

hello sugars !
i was soo pissed off cos i havent get my pay yet !!
i assume tat i'll get it after work just now but eventually ,
ZERO !!
ended up , they will release the pay later on ...
ccb !

ohh well , i had an unexpected dream last nite ..
i dreamt tat i got married wit ('fill in the blanks') ...
i remembered tat i and tat sumone wore purple colour !
sweet purple ...
tats so not wad i wanted for my wedding in the future ..
hhahaha !
and i saw clearly who is tat sumone ...
i was awoke suddenly at 3am like tat ...
like seriously , at am ???
aisyah said tat it may became true ..
soo unexpected siaa ...
okay enuf !
i dun wanna tink bout tat dream soo much !
maybe bcos i missed him soo much ..
well , i dun wanna predict anything ..
i will just follow the flow ..

i was in a happy mood !!
i sang ...
btl nye snang hati siak aku ..
and i dunnoe why ...
pffftt ~
so the random !

okay gdnyte sweethearts !
i wanna sleep cos i'm working morning shift tml ..
HUGS AND KISSES !
:D

2010-05-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

hello earth-lings !
*look up*
tats my ibu !
she may be naggy sumtimes and also crazy sumtimes ..
but I STILL LOVE HER SOO MUCH !!
no one can ever replace her ..
she's my laughing partner , my shoulder to cry on ,
my listening ears ...
she's my bestest friend ever !!
i do regret making her upset last time ..
no matter wad , she will always forgave me ..
i dun wanna upset her too much ..
she depends on me ..
as i'm the eldest in the family ..
i will strive hard for her ..
and my future ...
mum , thanks for being there for me ..
I LOVE YOU TIPAH ! ((:

oh well , besides my mum whom i love the most ..
theres still sumone who is still stuck inside my heart ..
i wont mention who ...
(rahsia hatiku)
hehehe ~
i dun understand why he's still there ..
its really hard to get rid of him ..
LIKE SERIOUSLY !!
thats the reason why i stayed single till now
eventhough theres still sum guys out there who tried
to ask me to be their gf ..
i just cant !
or should i give them the chance ?
hmmm ! maybe not ..
cos its not fair for them wen in my heart , theres sumone else ..
i cant stop thinking bout tat sumone ..
even wen i wanna sleep , i will think bout tat sumone ..
flashed back wen we used to be together ...
but then , wen i think back ...
no use to look back ..
i noe wen i dont stop thinking , i will cry ..
i'm such a cry baby ..
i noe ...

okay enuf of my sharing !
goodnite darlings !!
muahx ! ^^

2010-05-16T09:48:00.002+08:00

gd morning sunshine !
weird rite i update my blog early in the morning already ..
tats bcos my stupid fucking alarm on my phone never rings !!
i feel like throwing away tis phone siaaa ~
soo pissed off !
i woke up at 9 just now and i had to sign in at mid shift ..
tat is at 12pm to 8pm ..
if not bcos of tis alarm ,
i would have been at work rite now
and i will go home at 5pm !!
stupid shito !
okay relax ...
oh well , since i had worked retail lines for the past few months ,
i had learned to be patient wit alot of things ..
like seriously ..
cos working in retail lines needs patience ..
especially wit customers !!
who always messed up the store ...
and also wit fussy customers ...
hence , i had been patient enuf wit alot of people ..
especially wit guys ..
but just dun make my blood boils okayy ..
theres always the limits ..
i'm trying to be patient cos i'm changing myself ..
i learned to control my anger ..
cos i noe , its not a good thing to always be angry ..
okay tats all people !

btw , i love my job eventhough its freaking tired !!
weeeeeeeeeeeee ~
and i also love the people there !!
PEACE ^^

2010-05-11T12:24:00.002+08:00

hello darlings !!

i'm currently inside mummy's car ..

on my way to pasir ris for my facial appointment !

i was forced by mummy !!

sleepy siaaa ~

and i'm late for it already cos i supposed to reach there at 12pm ..

mummy nye psl lah kan , aku pegy ...

its fucking hot today ..

luckily i'm inside the car ..

hmm ..

my facial will be for 2-3hrs ...

wtf ??

and after tat , i'm going to vivo and meet aisyah .. cos we planned to

visit Zyraa at the hospital ..

okaylah bye2 !

will update back later

HUGS AND KISSES ! ((:

2010-05-10T13:49:00.002+08:00

i'm so fucked up sia !
i didnt check my tagged for a long time already ..
and wen i checked my inbox just now ,
theres tis minah ... send me a msg by saying tis ...
"this is Astro's gf.. eu know he has a gf.. why you still wanna be so fucking bitch and disturb hym and could even contact hym !"
WTF ????
since wen i contact somebody's bf ??
and by the name of astro ???
eh excuse me ASTRO'S gf !
dun u dare accuse me anyhow aite ?
i got my own pride and i'm not those bitches out there who bitched around wit ppl's bf !
AND ! i didnt even contact wit ur bf understand ?
even if u sees my name , its ur bf who started it first ...
BLAME UR BF BITCH !
hello ! i can find better ones out there ... i can find single guys out there ..
i dun go for attached guys !

eh sial lahh ...
ko ingat aku tahu per astro sape ? ade gf ke tk per ?
laki ko yg da gatal sgt la wei !
aku advice ko , gy jage ko peh laki baek2 uhh !
ko jgn jadi bodow gy percaye laki ko ah kay ?
hidop mesti mau pandai !!
aku ade maruah ! aku tak amek org punye !
ko ingat aku dah sengkek jantan per ?
aku tak tahu ah eh ko sape ..
psl ko da delete acc !
tapi lao ko bace nie ko terase , feel free to tag aku lah kay !

2010-05-05T19:14:00.002+08:00

konichiwa !!
well , i just came back from work ..
as i work in the morning shift today ..
i wanna share wit u all sumting !!
my alarm rings at 7am just now ..
i woke up and shut the alarm ..
i tot tat i wanna slip for 5mins ..
but i overslept ...
and i woke up by a weird dream ..
i dreamt about sumone ..
and i was happy in my dream ..
till i realised tat i smiled while i was sleeping ..
like seriously !!
i smiled by myself and i realised sumting !
i was still sleeping ....
so i open my eyes and i talk to myself ...
"SIAL LAH ! AKU LEY SENYOM2 LAGY!"
HAHAHAH ! wth ..
and it was almost 730am already ..
so i quickly went to the toilet
and had a quick shower ..
i quickly get ready and went out at 8 ..
fuh !
and i reached my work place at 9am sharp !
just my luck ..
i shouldnt have sleep back ..
huhu ..
so time runs VERY fast today ..
during break time , i ate sandwich only ..
till now , my appetite is not really there ..
so pathetic ..
behind those smiles , theres tears ..
CHEYYY ~
fuck lah !
dah naek mls lah aku nk nanges ...
tkde gune ..
so as for now , i will stay single first ..
much better !
eventhough i will feel lonely ..
just have to tahan for the time being ..
till i meet my Mr. Right guy ..
PEACE ~
sayonara sugars !!

2010-05-02T00:40:00.002+08:00

hello cuppycakes !
hehe ...
today , i'm soo freaking tired !!!
like , SERIOUSLY !!
eventhough i worked in the afternoon shift ,
i still felt soo weak ..
maybe bcoz i didnt eat for tis few days ..
well , actually i just ate bread ..
tats all ..
firstly , its bcoz i had no appetite .. bcoz of tis shingles !
made me soo cautious so tat i dun eat food tat i;m not suppose to ..
secondly , its bcoz of sumone ..
its such a big impact !
i never felt like tis b4 siaaaaaa ~
i tried soo many times to forget bout him ..
but its hard ...
and i hate it !
i tend to daydream ... thinking bout tis shit !
like wth !!!
wad had i done to deserve tis ?
why cant i have a happy rship ?
and now , it seems tat sumone lost the key to my heart ...
how am i supposed to open it for sumone else ...
i didnt expect myself to be tis way ...
i tend to be nice to people , but tis is wad i get in return ..
GREAT !!

jgn aku jadi playgal cm dulu suda kann ..
NEEHHH !!!
i wont ..
i had enuf ...

2010-04-29T11:39:00.001+08:00

darlings !
i seriously need a holiday !!
im so fucked up for the past few days ..
haiiiss ..
wad wrong had i done to deserve all tis shits ..
tis time , its thrice !
i had enuf of it .
u left me just like tat !
if u think u dun need me anymore , tell me straight !
dun left me hanging ard without knowing any single thing !
i just cant accept the fact tat u did tis to me thrice already !
ure so fickle-minded !
make up ur mind okay ?
i'm not just a toy tat u can toy ard wit !
if u think tat i'm just like any other gals tat u noe ,
sorry ! tats not me !
seriously, i've been patient wit u ...
patient enuf ...
but i just cant understand why u did this to me ?
to you , u had fun rite doing tis to me ?
thanks alot ok ?
i shud have known ..
ur words meant nothing all tis while rite ??
wtf sia ~
no one ever did tis to me till tis bad !
i shudn't had treat u gd ..
i shudn't had been so faithful to u !

2010-04-27T20:14:00.003+08:00

hello darlings ~
as for today , i worked in the morning shift ..
at 9am , like wth ?
and i slept at 3am yesterday ..
and .... i had to wake my sis up for school ..
cos her ears are abit deaf ?
haha ! kidding ~
she slept wit me yesterday so i was awoke by her
noisy alarm !!
so i slept till 7am ..
woke up and bathe ..
went out around 815am ..
and im sure im late for work !!
i reached there around 910am ..
buat muke selamba je ~ hehe
i just sign in as 9am ..
who cares ?? huhu
so at work i was like a zombie ..
i feel like sleeping ~
to avoid tat from happening , i always went to
the fitting room and talk wit ziezie ..
she and her mask ~
hahaa !!
230pm , went for break ..
i just ate sushi ..
coz i really dun have the appetite to eat nowadays ..
due to some reasons , i shall not mention it here ..
break wit ziezie and erm , aku lupe uh namer agy satu tu !
hahahaa ~
finish break , assume my work ..
and at last ,
"Nurul come to the counter"
hahahaha !
yessa 5pm already .. can go home ~
and i took bus 188 back home coz i noe the mrt was packed
at tat time and i wanna sit down ~
coz anytime i can fall asleep ...
and yea , i fell asleep inside the bus ..
sampai kepale terhentak hentak ..
head banging lah plak aku niek !
huhu .. malu siot org tgk aku !!!
reached cck interchange , took 307 and home sweet home ~

hmmm ..
i just can sense tat its gonna happen again
like it used to ..
oh well , i'll just be prepared for watever
tats gonna happen ...
i just dun understand why things turn out to be tis
way AGAIN ?
ive been good enuf .. patient enuf ...
so wad else ?
tsk ~
okay watever ~~~

and im bored ..
you guys noe wad ?
i feel like throwing away my handphone coz its been silent for quite
a period of time ..
as i definately didnt contact some other guys ..
and most of my contacts , i already deleted them ..
hahaha ~
menyesal ..
pathetic sia ~
okay la shuddup ..
bye !

2010-04-25T17:09:00.007+08:00

hello sweethearts !
the pictures above were taken yesterday at
Zyraa's crib, celebrating her 17th burfdae ..
actually i tot of staying there till 9
but i dragged till 11.30pm ..
hahaha ..
okay wont elaborate much on it ..
i had fun wit them yesterday .
and i cant wait for Zyraa's bbygirl to be born !
darlings , mane2 gmbr yg ade muke korang , amek okay ?
muacks !!

2010-04-24T14:39:00.002+08:00

oh god ~
shud i be thankful ?
coz i managed to lose 4kg within 2days
just bcoz im sick ?
hahahaha !
oh my gucci ~
but i seriously cant take it animore ...
to me , tis is the worst ting tat i had ever been tru !!

aku da lah stress psl byk bende ...
family laen , rship laen .
ade org gler yg asyek contact aku laen ..
and tat is DEDEY !
tak abes2 dgn die punye , imy seyy ..
cant we mit ?
alamak irritating tol lah !!

2010-04-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

first of all , would like to wish
my dearest gf , Zyraa
a Hapie Burfday !
i noe i wished u kinda late ..
i wanna post it yesterday ,
but internet was such a bitch .. huhu
i tried to call u but cant get tru !
alamak !
nehmind ..
i just hope u read tis (:
zyraa ,
ure 17 now and ure gonna be a mother
to ur bbygirl soon ..
i noe its not easy to be a young mother
but wadeva it is , i hope tat u'll have
patience for everything ..
if u nid a fren , i'll be there for u ..
i'll always be ur bestest fren ok SKINNY GIRL ?
hahahah ..
i wanna say thanks for being my bestfren since sec 3
i'm thankful enuf tat we didnt even quarrel
tru'out tis yrs ..
thanks for giving me advices
i love you gf !
muacks !!

okay im done wit all those wishes ..
ohh damn ..
im down with high fever
and its getting worst !
for goodness sake !!
i cant even go out ..
and all i do was sleeping ..
my head feels soo heavy ..
and i can barely get out of my bed ..
i'll feel like fainting wenever i tried to do so
seriously ...
AND summore ! i had my period tis morning ..
i'm in such a great pain !!
and no one took gud care of me ..
even mum ..
she doesnt seem to care ..
just bcoz shes angry at me over a small matter ..
and guess wad ?
i didnt eat the whole day !
i just ate a biscuit ..
coz i cant just eat anything ..
as i have shingles ..
and my throat was swollen ..
arghh !
wen will i ever recover ??
darlings , pls pray hard tat i'll get well soon aite ?
bubye ~

2010-04-21T20:07:00.003+08:00

jump jump gelek gelek !!
hahahaha
oh hello ..
as for today , i went to the polyclinic
to see the doctor of coz ..
so yea , showed the doctor my SHINGLES ..
i was abit shy coz the doctor is a man !
but nehmind ..
doctor wad ..
the doctor asked me if i have fever or not and i say, dunnoe .
so the doctor checked my temperature and woah !
my temperature is 38.1 degrees..
at first , the doctor wanted to give me 2days mc
then he cancelled and gave me 3days ..
he printed out the mc already ..
and he changed his mind and gave me 4days !
cool or wat ?
the doctor love me .. tats why ((:
but i dun wan my mc to be too long ..
im scared tat i will be fired ..
huhu !
pray hard tat ill be fine soon ok guys ?
went home after tat and play poker ..
aisyah gave me 20K ..
and another 10+K i won ..
wooohoooo !
i just hoped tat sumone wont let the chips fly off
just like tat ...
u noe who u are .. haha !

aku binget tol dgn bdk msn !
waduhh !
aku letak pat pm aku 'SHINGLES'
da tu satu2 tegor aku ..
u da single ?
reali ?
eh u single ? serious ?
alamak !!!
sort sakk
dorang bdw ke ape niekk ..
tk tau bace gaknye ..
snang nye aku jwb ,
ITS SHINGLES , TAK TAHU BACE BTL2 KER ?
IM ATTACHED NOT SINGLE ..
haha !
tros satu2 ckp , oh ok2 .. sry ..
budo !

2010-04-21T01:00:00.002+08:00

arigato !
well , i would like to share with u all sumting .
in my earlier post , i told u guys tat i had rashes ryte ..
actually its not ..
my colleague told me tat it was SHINGLES ..
eeeewww !
so disgusting ..
the picture above is the example ..
tats not mine btw ..
mine is still at an early stage ..
i did some research bout tis shingle ting ..
luckily mine is not tat bad ..
well eventually , everyone will get it sooner or later ..
I'M SOO GONNA GO TO THE DOCTOR TML !
i dun wanna waet any longer ..
i cant stand the itchiness and pain ..
argghhh !
BLOODY BASTARD ...

and im pissed off ..
wont elaborate anything bout it ..
bubye !

2010-04-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

hello readers !
supposed to stay at home today
bcoz i wanna refrain myself from wearing bra
just bcoz of tis irritating rashes ..
but i ended up mitting boify ..
as i missed him sesgt .. (:
its a last min tingy ..
so yea , went out at 4+
waited for boify for 1hr ..
i shud have gone out abit later sia ..
and its raining summore ..
luckily im not drenched ..
and i went back home ard 10+ ..

theres no one at home wen i reached home just now ..
damn .
coz mummy and sis went out ..
wen i was bathing den they reached home ..
so yea ..
asked mummy to apply the cream for me ..
swit ryte my mummy ..
and guess wad ?
my rashes are getting worst !
bloody hell !
i guessed i wont be wearing my bra tml to work ..
ill tink of sumting then ..
I HATE TIS BLOODY RASHES !!
PLS GO AWAY !!!

2010-04-19T14:18:00.002+08:00

yelar my fault lah kan ..
i shouldn't have say like tat ..
but tats not my intention ..
not at all ..
pls dun get me wrong ..
im realy sorry bout tat ...
my bad ...
i wanted to accompany u otf if u cant sleep ..
i dun mind ..
eventhough im sleepy , i will definately accompany u ..
coz uve been a part of me ..
i will surely be there for u ..
but ended up u got me wrong and tis all bcoz
of those words tat i said to u ..
i wont say anything like tat ever again ..
im so so sorry k ..
pls dun get angry at me anymore ..
and i dun wan tis matter to drag for a long period of time ..
i hate it if things turned out to be tis way ..
well , nobody likes it aniwae ..
haiiiss
i just hope tat things will be like it used to be ..

2010-04-19T01:52:00.002+08:00

hello sayangss !
its 2am and i havent sleep yet ..
coz why ...
i finished work ard 11 ..
but im supposed to finish work at 1030
but customers mcm (_____)'fill in the blanks'
make the whole store into a huge mess !
so yea ..
after work went to cck
coz i wanna go to the 24hrs clinic ..
as im having some kind of rashes
under my breast and at the back of my body ..
SERIOUSLY !!
ITS SOO ITCHY AND PAINFUL ..
and tis is my first time getting tis ..
and i stil cant figure out why ..
doctor gave me a medication cream
and an oral medication ..
for my itchiness ..
i was charged , 40bucks .
hmmm
so after tat went home ..
bathe and suroh mummy apply the cream for me .
but now i still havent eat the pill ..
coz it causes drowsiness ..
i hate this itchiness !!
aku kat tempat keje tadi tahan jekk !
coz aisyah refrained me from scratching it ..

i love my work !!
coz i had fun colleagues ..
especially Jeremy aka Jem2 aka Ludin !
hahaha ..
he's not straight and he had a bf ..
huhu !
he's hawt and cute but its a waste tat he is a gay ..

tibe2 aku teringatkan aisyah .
we each had to wear a tag ..
so tat people noe we worked there ..
itu aisyah , punye pndai ...
amek tag tk tgk btl2 ..
smpai lah Jem2 tegor die ..
"wah!u Supervisor ah?"
hahaha !
budo ..
coz we are supposed to wear the
Sales Associate tag ..

i missed someone ..
wanna noe who ?
find out urself !!
im not telling ..
*evil smile*
hehe ..

2010-04-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

*look up*
okay tis is my 2008 picture ..
lyke gud gud lyke tat ryte ...
i noe .. hahah !
im always gud .. (:

well , i worked just now ..
morning shift wei !
and i almost late ..
someone mulot sway ...
ckp aku akan lambat ..
grrr !
luckily i reach there on time ..
JUST MY LUCK !!
so i ate black carrot cake during my break ..
tuu pon tak abes ...
i nak diet ..
coz i dah put on weight ..
hehe

i hate it wen i took the mrt ..
i always came across crazy idiotic people ..
and they seriously freaked me out !!
how i wish i had my own transport !!
nehmind ..
just waet for next year !
weeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

2010-04-14T13:18:00.002+08:00

hello sweethearts (:
okay today im not working ..
soo i just gonna stay at home and rest ..
its really tiring working as Sales Associate ..
but wad to do right ..
need money !!
well , working at Forever 21 is like working with
a bunch of malay families ..
called the Asst. Manager , MOTHER ..
hahaha ..
and shes a malay too ..
its actually fun ..
coz they tend to crack jokes ..
and bbl kotor ! hahaha

hmmm ..
just now si EBBY BABI tuu call ..
aku takk tahu saper actually call coz i already deleted his number
tak paham bahase betol lah si dekni !!
aku betol2 kasi anjing makan ko peh kpale tortise baru tahu !
NINABU CCB !

okay wanna webby wit syasya ~
SAYONARA ~~

2010-04-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

hello daily readers (:
im soo tired today ..
as i already started working at Forever 21
at Vivo City ..
worked from 12pm-8pm ..
imagine that !!
and Tuesday working from 145pm-1030pm ..
such a long hours ..
nehmind ..
nak carik rezeki kann ..
dari aku buang duit mak bapak aku ..
kene lah blajar hidop susah ckit ..
and i wanna gain experience first ..
so tat its easy for me in the future ..
coz i noe , in the future , its not easy ..
i dun think my pay that is 1.2k is enough for me in the future
lagi-lagi kalau nak kahwin ..
chey ! jaoh melayang ..
but its true right ..
well , need to collect money ..
in case i didnt get a chance to study anymore ,
i will take some courses out there ..
make up course that cost 4-5K ?
or some office course ..
as time past by , i wanna upgrade myself ..
i need to think bout my future ..
im stubborn actually ..
i dun like anyone to arrange my life
including my parents ..
or should i say especially my dad ?
coz he didnt seem to care or understand
wad i actually want ?
hmmmm ...

mum discuss something bout marriage to me
like out of the blue moon ..
hahaha !
she said ,
"marriage lyfe isn't easy..you need to choose
the right person..it doesnt matter who they are
but how is his character..important thing is
responsibility..can he support you?if he is willing
to upgrade himself and think bout how the both of
you will survive,its fine..dun ever find a husband
like ur dad..
its fine to marry a guy tat had married before..
but its not easy..
especially when they have kids..
its alright if he can support u kakak ..
wen ure married,never make
him bored..pampered him..and never forget ur responsibilities
as a wife..its very important.."
panjang2 lebar mak aku bebual ..
ape angin pon aku tak tahu ..
macam lah aku nie danak kahwin ..
hahaha !
lek lah bu ! belom ade lagi lah nak dengan kakak ..
tak laku kott ..

SAYONARA ~

2010-04-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

konichiwa ! :D
today went out wit Fatin and Aisyah ..
didnt plan it actually but i just remembered tat i nid a black shoe
for work tis coming monday .. huhu
so called Aisyah and ask her to accompany me ..
and at the same time Fatin texted me
so i asked her to tag along ..
Fatin came to my house first ..
went out ard 430pm .
met Aisyah at Yew Tee platform coz i wanna go town ..
went Ion Orchard ..
TOPSHOP !!
so we went Topshop ..
coz they sell shoes there ..
and yar ! there is !
bought a black shoe there tat coz 39bucks ..
okay lahh tuu kann ..
tot of buying Everlast shoe .
next time then ..
after that we proceed to Far East Plaza ..
ate at Sakura ..
damn FULL weiii ..
then we slacked at Fullerton ..
around 930 we proceed to the MRT station ..
as Aisyah wanna mit her sayang at Woodlands ..
and aku takot ade org bising aku alek lmbt ..
hahahaha !
1040 reached home ..
masak maggie ..
AND HERE I AM !

mendak to the MAX !!
derder went out ..
lepak wit his friends ..
dah sakit2 tak tau nk ddk umah diam2 eh ?
tsk ~

2010-04-10T13:55:00.003+08:00

Arigato ~
okay i cant stop laughing wen i video call wit syasya ..
she sang some songs for me ..
tat had to do wit me , her and BONE TOAD GATAL !
hahahahah
she sang something like tis ,
uncle derder chol ..
uncle derder jeles !
pasal kita suke naqiah
naqiah love bone toad gatal but bone toad gatal
suka marara !
knape naqiah mesti ngn uncle derder
naqiah lawa
uncle derder rambot mcm mangkok
knape uncle derder suke tipu-pu !
uncle derder suke mara adeq !
nanti kasi naqiah cry
nanti adeq kena pujok

part kekek is wen die gy amek mangkok and letak atas kpale die .. :D
and lots more lah ~
hahahahah !
oh yar , she sang wit 'Baby' song background .
CUTE NYE LAHHH DEKNI !!

2010-04-10T03:47:00.002+08:00

okay i noe my face macam babi .. haha
guess what ?
its almost 4am and i still havent sleep yet ...
pasal terpkir2kan seseorg ini ..
pasal ade org ini mara kat gue ..
huhu
sodeh bulu beb !
takley tido nye pasal , aku tgk la video2 pat youtube ..
and i watch this gangbang video ...
kimak kimak ~
kecian sakk aku tgk tu pmpn ..
org tgk video tu macam stim , aku rase cm nak nanges dok !
im SERIOUS !
air mate dah bertakung jekk ..
hahahahah !
biase lahh ..
im sensitive ..
takley kene ckit ..
kene mara , nanges ..
tgk cter sedih , nanges ..
org nanges , aku pon nk join sekaki ..
LAGY2 KLAO DISAKITI ..
hehe ..
but i recover very the fast (:

why issit so hawt !!!!
damn it !
okay SAYONARA ~
ill try to sleep .
MUACKS !

2010-04-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

hello darlings !
today i spent my day wit my ZyraaBelly ..
*look up*
went out after 1230pm ..
bought Ferrero Rocher for her ..
coz tats wad she's been waiting for from me ..
slack at her cribs .
watched a indon ghost story ..
sungguh tak seram !
byk suspend jekk ..
and got some unsensored scenes ..
woohoohooooo !
stim tgk ..
FAKE ~
hahahha ..
then watch The Lightning Thief ..
well , we share alot of stories ..
she gave me some advices ..
about 'SOMETHING' ..
ko niek ponn !
step aku playgal jekk nk tukar2 jantan ..
no time okayy ..
aku setie weii ..
hmmmm ..
ard 630 , accompany her amek cake for her mum ..
coz its her mum's burfdae ..
then proceed to aisyah's house coz die blm siap
nak teman aku gy lot 1 ..
went lot 1 to buy contact lens for mum and sis ..
so da terlanjor jmper aisyah ,
i talk things out la kann ..
actually im stress staying at home ..
i just feel that i dun have a father ..
i noe his working but wen he's in spore ,
im out ..
and wen im at home the whole day ,
he's either out to tis particular place ,
or not in spore ..
he cant blame me for tis ..
people dun really understand wad i feel
or wad im going through ..
dad , i dun care bout your money ..
i want your love ..
i'hd NEVER feel your love ..
i only feel abit of your concern ..
and wad you always show is ANGER ..
haiiisss ..
forget it ...
dun wanna elaborate much on tis matter ..
such a heart pain ..

dear ,
im really sorry if ure angry wit me ..
i noe i went home quite late ..
i dun intend to ..
i just feel tat i rather be out there
then be at home ..
dun act as if i did some big mistakes .
pls ..
im just out there letting out how i feel .
SORRY
ILY ..

2010-04-09T00:58:00.002+08:00

Arigato !!
first of all , i would like to say that
i enjoyed my day wit bbygirls just now ..
met Faii first coz our block was side by side ..
den met Anis and Syahirah at Yew Tee ..
Saf waited for us already at CCK platform ..
and as usual , itu Aisyah lmbt ..
next time nak kene kuar after die da smpai uhh
hahaha !
we alight at Clementi and took bus 7 to
BOTANIC GARDEN ..
PICNIC PICNIC PICNIC !!
da lamer plak aku tk picnic ..
hehehe ..
and ade lah satu org nie knn , ckp
aku nie mcm makcik2 gy picnic ..
kurangsss ehh u ..
haha !
dah smpai jek , teros aku mkn !
hungry sesgt coz aku keluar tak mkn ..
ate Chicken Cutlet rice ..
yumyum !
so after tat , we took pictures ..
ALOT !!
but mostly we took it using Anis and Saf's camera ..
cepat upload okay !!
kiterorg semangat 5min jekk ..
datang hyper nak mampos ..
da lpas tuu , smue down ..
tired and exhausted ..
kene gigit nyamok plak tuu ..
like Saf say ,
"theres tis one particular nyamok"
hahaha !
seriously , ade satu nyamok sesat kat situ ..

so at 6+ , we went off ...
without Syahirah .. coz shes wit her friend there ..
huhu ..
we went to Marina Square ..
walk around ..
tot of buying tis Bebe shirt tat cost 80+ bucks ..
but nehhh ..
i bought a Mango shirt cost 29bucks ..
Aisyah went off first ..
coz shes going woodlands to mit her sayang ..
chol ..
around 9 , Faii , Anis , Saf and i went home
we took the red line ..
bounce back coz we want to sit .. (:
around 10 reached Yew Tee ..
bought ice-cream at Macdonald's ..
cam biasa lah kalau alek dgn Faii ..
hahaah !
so we sat under the void deck near our block first
story-telling jap ..
den went home ..
ONLINE ! wad else ..

okay Facebook been such a Biatch !
i cant upload some of my pictures ..
WAT-TA-FUCK !!
budo laahh ..

webby wit Der Dear just now ..
i miss looking at his face ..
awwwhhh ...
i like to stare at his face .
SUKE SUKE SUKE !!
hahaahha ..
but he offline already coz he wanna slip ..
less then 15mins he called ..
tk ley tdo lak nie anak ..
so i otf for awhile wit him ..
and he's asleep now ..
kcian derder pnat .. haha !
SLIP TITE LOVE (:

okay tats all sayangs !
SAYONARA ~

p.s. u da bace diam2 ehh .. hahaa ! malu !

2010-04-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

*look up*
i swear i miss her soo much !
My only Zyraa ..
huhu ..
bbygirl , i wanna mit u !
sumpah lao aku jmpe ko , aku cnfrm
pelok ko kuat2 !
hehehe ...
its been mths since i met her ..
i just dun hv the time seyy ..
i promise tat i'll visit u soon ..
ilysm gf ! (:

well ,
gaji gue da masok tdi ..
700+ bucks ..
i trnsfr 300 to my mum .. :(
and the rest ill spend ..
huhu ..
i wanna buy tat watch laa !
nehmind ..
ill just for daddy's bonus pay ..
*evil smile*
and yarr ~
kann aku da ckp ,
mesti org tuu bace blog aku ..
hahahaha !
kepo ~
i just cant forget bout it ..
der ! u noe i noe ..
kiss kiss .. hahahaha !
bastard sak u ..

chol eh u ..
tdo tak msg ...
tkpe laa ..
i noe ure tired ...
slip tite dear .. (:

2010-04-06T23:55:00.007+08:00

below are pictures taken yesterdae ..
we went Sim Lim ..

before ....

after ...

aisya buang tabiat pkai belt ..

hello sayangs !
its 1210am and i havent slip yet ..
my dear slip already .. (aku rase uhh coz he said so)
hahahah !
sial eh aku ..
i trust him ..
he's tired werking ..
huhu ..
kciann die ...
slip tite babyboo !
I LOVE YOU (:

well , it seems tat tings are going on just fine ..
and im fucking glad bout it !!
seriously ...
tis is wad i wan ..
i just miss him effing lots !!
huhu ...
i wish tat u were here so tat i
could hug u tightly !
hahaha !
k aku tknk byk2 feeling kat sini ..
nanti ade org tu bace ,
and he will say i nie feeling2 lah knn ..
sebok aje ..
blueks !
i love you mangkok !!
muahaahhaha !

2010-04-04T14:34:00.002+08:00

Now we barely exchange words
and the silence of our beating
hearts hurts more. I use to talk
to your photos, to keep you alive
in my dreams.

I hope you know I still care
still miss your voice
still feel your touch
still love your being

Time doesn't go back which
means I had to let go of what we had,
but trust me I'll always keep you
in one special sacred place

why am i posting tis ?
hahahahah !
cock cock cock !!

2010-04-03T19:46:00.002+08:00

ARIGATO !
(hello)
well , i woke up early in the morning todae ..
tak tahu la ape angin kan aku bgn siang2 ..
susa dtg siol ..
and pagy2 da online .. hee
so i just golek2 first ..
den go watch tv ..
12pm den i go bathe ..
diam ~
and siap2 coz wanna go jemputan ..
aku siap nak dekat 2jam .. haha !
biasa lahh ..
nak tangkap jams kat situ nant ..
single .. chey !
so went for jemputan at Yishun ..
nothing much .. boring ..
hmmm
i wanna upload a video of tis 3 makciks
dorang joget ...
hahaha
tapi connection cm BITCH uh ..
nehmind .. ill try to upload it later ..
hmm .. im quite irritated by those makciks ..
kept asking my mum tis ..
"anak kau bler nak kahwin?nanti jgn lupe jempot!"
den my mum replied ,
"eh die baru 17 nak kahwin ape?"
and the makcik sae ,
"alahh tkpelah.. lao ade yg suntik tu
terime je lah..lao cik ade anak lelaki cik
masok minang"
aku ktawekn jek lah ehh
ewah ewah ...
die ingat senang2 per nak kahwin ?
aku nie masey mude ..
long way to go ...
da dpt Mr. Right , baru lah ley kahwin ..
eh ! nikah lah !
kahwin slalu .. hahahah !
aku nk Mr. Right aku niek kann ..
die kene ade stable job , die mesti tinggi !
die bkn playboy ..
understanding , caring ...
yang penting , die sygg aku srg ajer ..
hehehe ..
tak kesah lah die prangai tk tentu psl ..
aku penyabar ..
TAPI ADE LIMITS WEI !
hahaha !
okay enuf bout tat ...
mls nk pkir psl nie Mr. Right ..
step ade org nak aku jek ..

darah aku masey up niek
bler teringatkan psl si ebby babi tu !
ko ingat ko mane nye hawt eh ?
go suck cock bodow ko !
muke aku buat ko saket per ?
suare aku buat ko high ehh ?
wow ?
ko ckp mcm tkde pape gtu ...
dasar babiang btl lah ko !
fuck ursef k !

2010-04-02T21:26:00.004+08:00

*look up*
hahahah !
i noe we look like (_____)fill in the blanks ..
tis is us wen we were 14 on 2007 ..
senyum nk step kiut lah gtuk ..
ok shuddup !
basically , my day today was such a bore ..
i just went out to mit aisyah to pass her mummy's jamu ..
went marsling at her aunt's hse ..
played badminton for awhile
and si esah nie maen tk bagy warning ..
ape lagy , tu shuttle cock terkene lah kat mate aku ..
direct plak tu !
aku nye mate da sbelah da tk nmpk jap ..
ooouuccchh !
saket tahu !!
naseb tak bengkak ..
maseh rase cm berdenyut2 seyy ..
so after tat , her father fetch us all ..
then go mamam at west coast ..
ard 8 i reach home ..
and tat derder chol called .
cm tahu2 jek ..
lpas tu plak syasya called ..
suro gue online ..
coz her mum nk tunjok make up ..
but den i go berak first ! ooo lalaa !
sdap ckit weii ..
pasal adeq aku tgh pkai lappy ! =.=
so , i watch tv dulu ..

hmmmph !
mendak lah !
nak uatper eh ?
erm , tgk cter barbie pon cantek !
k aku tahu aku childish ..
cute okay ?!
dah diam ~
nie esah baru call aku ..
die ckp sumting yg buat aku tiong jap !
die ckp ,
"eh naq!ebby ckp ngn aku yg die saket ko siol!"
die kate suare pon ley uat gtu ..
kimak kimak ~
tk perlu sak ckp tu mcm ..
ko pkir klakar per ?
prangai tkmo cm jantan sundal eh ko !
fuck urself bodow !
ko nye kpale tortoise pegy kasi anjing mkn k ?
da bye !
SAYONARA ..
muahx !

2010-04-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

cute kan bdk niek ..
namer die syasya ..
almost everydae i webcam wit her ..
its a gud ting for me tis few daes
coz she tried to cheer me up ..
by singing a song for me ..
wit her cute voice ..
i told her tat i feel like crying ..
and she will sae ,
"awak tkmo cry k..nanti kita pon cry..
kita nyanyikan awak biar awak happy k.."
how swit of her ..
she reali made me smile eventhough
sumtimes she remind me of her uncle chol ..
haha
and she tricked me just now
wen i was slipping ..
she called me
"awak!bone toad gatal online!"
and i was like , kkkk !
woke up ..
and end up he didnt ..
jahat la awak ..
naseb awak cute tao ..

everitime he called ,
i feel like crying ...
air mate bertakung ajer weii ..
to avoid the tears from rolling down my
cute cheeks , hahaha !
aku bbl lah kerek ckit ..
tapi dlm hati , tuhan saje yg tahu ..
letak tepon jek ,
meleleh lah .. wad else ..
and syasya saw it ..
and again , she sang to me ..
she sent me a video of her singing
but i cant upload .. huhu ..

i had to admit tat i felt better now ..
im sumone tat cures easily ..
but dun ever pull my tail ..
i can eventually let my anger out
to everyone ard me ..
and ill become weak after tat ..
aku nye tawar hati dah tak tawar sgt uhh ..
da ade manis ckit ..
ckit aje , tak byk .. (:
tapi aku tetap tk minat dgn guys ..
pls dun ask me out okay ..
ill definately sae NO ..
coz my heart is still for one ..
eventhough im single ..
muahx !
sayonara ~

2010-03-30T01:12:00.002+08:00

i kept asking myself ..
why do guys have such a big ego ?
why cant they put aside their ego for
a moment ..
i mean like , certain things
you just have to put away ur ego ..
right ?
haiiss ..

aku betol2 tawar hati skg ..
tak tersangka aku boley nangis psl
satu LELAKI niek ..
and its obviously HYDER ..
asl ko kene buat aku mcm niek ?
ape slh aku pat ko ?
satu kali ko buang aku ketepi ,
aku tak rase pape ..
nie dah due kali ..
aku btl2 rase tawar hati ..
psl ape , aku da start sygkn ko ..
tapi nie yg aku dpt ..
ko ngat aku pmpn ape ?
bler ko nk , ko pkai ..
ko tknk , ko buang ketepi ..
aku bkn sampah eh ..
mane ko punye kate2 slame niek ?
ko janji nk jage aku ..
ko kate ko syg aku ..
kirekn ape ?
ko punye kate2 tak pkai la nie ehh ..
smpai hati ko ..
seriously ko buat aku tawar hati ..
thanks ehh ..
aku rase memng ko sngaje nk uat nie mcm
pat aku ..
thanks for making me cried yesterdae ..
and now ..

2010-03-12T01:00:00.001+08:00

im comparing my horoscope wit hyder ...

The homely cancer may find sociable and gregarious Gemini too hard to get along with.
While Gemini is constantly looking for change,
Cancer is satisfied to become a truly domesticated mate.
A Gemini girl's love for freedom cannot put
up with Cancerean possessiveness.
On the other hand, the Cancerean moodiness may
become too much for Gemini to cope with.
There may be some compatibility, especially if there are children to
keep the Gemini mother's time occupied.
Cautious crab can be sometimes caught off guard
by the impulsive extravagance of his Gemini girl to buy him gifts.
But he may silently admire her thoughtfulness.
Cancers are driven by emotion and feelings and
generally prefer steady relationships.
Gemini's unstoppable movement will prove unsettling for Cancer.
However, some patience on the part of Gemini girl
and a little adjustment by the crab in the
beginning can put the relationship back on tracks.
They will share a sexual rapport, making the experience
stimulating and fulfilling.
Gemini girl can trust the unwavering love of her Cancerean man.

2010-03-09T02:10:00.005+08:00

hello peeps !

its complicated between me and him ..
i dun understand him lahh ..
stupid asshole ..
quarelled wit him just now ..
coz i told him tat theres tis guy
who hold my hands and kiss me on the cheek ..
actuali i wanted to see how he reacted ..
at first he was lyke , "watever!"
after tat , "u serious per??"
and i was lyke, "serious lahh!takkan maen2"
so he asked me tat guy stays and blablabla ..
and he put down the fone , saying tat
he would call me back ..
but not even a call
so i sign in to my msn messenger
he online ..
usually he will nudge me first
but he didnt ..
so i start first ..
and he was lyke "ape??!!"
i asked him why den he said its bcos of
wad i told him just now ..
i didnt even do aniting yknow ..
tat guy who was out of limits ..
pfffft ~
he was freaking pissed wit me ..
till he said tat he hates me :(
how sad can i be ...
and he told me tis ..
"u tau tadi my dad tanya i..hyder naqiah mana dgn muke tersenyum dia...
u tau tak i happy bile my dad ckp gtu........."
i was lyke ...
speechless .. (:
and soon after tat , he webcam wit me ..
crazy ..
and he called me ..
crazy ...
he is crazy ...
reali dun understand him ..
stupid lolok !
and he is slipping now ..
i guessed ?
ahahha !
hoped soo ..

and ohh !
i got my pay alreadi ..
soo i gave 200bucks to mum ..
130bucks to color+treatment+cut my hair ..
29bucks , bought a Forever 21 clothes for sis ..
25bucks to eat , blanja esah ..
and the rest for my daily use ..
hurhur ..
hyder said tat i look nice mit my new hair .. *winks !

2010-03-08T03:32:00.002+08:00

hello people !
im soo slipy now but ill just blog ..
just a short post ...
just came back from ex-boify's house ..
but met aisya and lepak ..
shes wit me now ... slipping lyke a pig !
haahahaa
niwaes , i didnt go home last nite ..
due to some reasons ..
aisya , i noe u noe ..
we went back to AMK but diff house ...
i slept at ex-boify's hse which is aisya's cuzzy ..
i slip lyke a pig !
it was my first tyme waking up wit my bacen face in front of a guy ..
psstttt .. we neva do aniting ehh ...
i woke up at 3 ...
4 den i bathe .. hehehe
i wanna upload his face but cant ...
syiok sndiri amek gmbr ... stupid face ...

okay bye ! wanna ZZZzzzzzz !

2010-02-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

heluuu darlings (:
i noe my blog is soo boring ..
hahah
i dun reali have much time to blog
everidae ..
once in awhile only ..

im quite happy wit my lyfe now ..
errr .. not reali lahh .. hehe
at least i didnt waste my tyme for nutink ..
i regret tat i didnt study hard for my N ..
but its too late to regret ..
well , thats the reason why im werking ..
and also , i dun wanna trouble my parents too much ..
enuf of my nonsence last tyme ..
but doesnt mean im an uneducated girl ...
im planning to take private O's ..
or maybe apply for some courses out there ..
perhaps next year ?
all i did all tis while was slipping , eating and werking ..
wad a lyfe ... haha
wen im not tired , ill spend my tyme wit gfs/bfs ..
and mostly , mummy ..
love her soo much !
and yar ! i nid to give half of my salary to her ..
how sad ...
hahaha

im planning to change myself ..
i mean , my character ...
hmm ..
image ? doesnt matter ..
cant judge a book by its cover ryte ? haha
i admit tat im abit rough sumtymes ..
i tend to let tings out beyond wad i expected ...
fuuuhh !
i shud learn to control myself ..
limits !!!
*slap my own mouth*

2010-02-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

tag replies ...

to Zyra : rabak ehh ?? tau tkpe ! pedih siol hati ...

to LilyIson : i miss u too beb !! muahx !

to faii : hahaha ! tau ponn ! cm nk cili jekk mulot die !!

2010-02-18T15:28:00.003+08:00

hello lovelies !

today is my off day ..
lyke , wooohooo !!
soo slept till 11+ ..
wakey2 .. den took my shower ..
after tat , met ex-bf ..
just accompanied him for awhile ...

ard 3 , go home !
boring ~
mum went out ..
sent dad to harbourfront ..
till now shes not home yet ..
haiyaaa ..
i wanna go out ..
but whr to ? wit who ?
hmmm ..
mummy just called me ..
ask me to rest as much as i can ..
later at nite , auntie ajak go dangdut la wei !
haha

p.s. Aisyah !! i did it ! i didnt just give him me ! im hapie lahhh !! i noe u noe eh sya ? hee (:

2010-02-18T15:23:00.002+08:00

tags replies ..

to Helena : alrytes .. will relink you soon (:

to NanaSkinny : okay bebeh .. relink soon .. ilyt ! (:

to Aryenti : okay aku dah bagy emel kat blog ko ..

to AisyahSuper : ape ko mepek setan ?? hahahah

2010-02-14T13:57:00.002+08:00

im still fed-up with ex-bf ..
his words really pissed me off ..
over the limits

~ *** NuNuL *** ~ said:
i tau u tak akan byr nye , so i nant pndai2 laa ..
u diam2 sua
Ahmad says:
bual jgn biadap
u slalu pandang rendah dkt org,tungu aje balak timpa diri u
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
tk biadap per .. u asal ? i tak suro u tanggung da cukop bagos .. soo i suro u diam2 suda ahh
eh hello !!!
duwet yg abg u curi , ade byr alek perr ????
satu sen pon tkde ..
ckp tk gune , tembak tk kene
Ahmad says:
abg i stil kene charge pe,and..i yg curi duit tu pe??wth
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
oh wth ??? sape suro janji nk byr huh ? wth ? wtf ???
da tau tk ley byr , tkyah la janji
Ahmad says:
dgn care u tk hormat i n slalu biadap,ure gonna stay like this forever
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
u dun respect me tooo .. stakat u tk sedar jekk
wadeva k ..
i dun nid u ..
Ahmad says:
da curang,tk rase berslh,lagi bnyk bunyi
i dun nid u too
g hidop mkn duit jantan k
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
psl ape gune nk stay dgn org cm u ???? tk gune ! uat pakai org ! org ckp tk trime !
AND U TOO ! PKAI DUWET PMPN !
Ahmad says:
ur life are gonna stay miserable like this forever
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
hhahaha !
oh no ..
im hapie now ..
u made my lyfe miserable
i regret it
Ahmad says:
da tkde pelajaran,lagi membebel
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
hahaha
menyusakn ko perr ?
Ahmad says:
i ade mintak duit u pe?
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
at least aku tk buang mase aku utk 1yr habiskn hasil or
*org
Ahmad says:
lantak la,u carry on je curang ngn jantan k
anak beranak sama
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
aku tk curang ngn org lao org tk curang ngn aku
Ahmad says:
curang
~ *** NuNuL *** ~ says:
ko tkmo step famili ko byk nye baek
satu2 rosak
tk pyh nk kutok famili aku

ure too much ..
its bout you and me ..
why must u say all tat ?
and had my mum's matter involve ?
luckily i didnt patch up wit u ..
u dun accept me for who i am .
ur lyfe will be more miserable den mine ..
ive already started to plan my future ..
not lyke u ..
wasting ur tyme wit girls ..
wasting ur parents money ..
wasting ur tyme for nuting

2010-02-13T19:01:00.002+08:00

hello peeps !
todae worked from 1015am-5pm ..
lyke woohoo !!
took pics wit the staffs ..
and also a moody dae for me ..
coz i didnt expect my 'fren' to come todae ..
and i didnt standby the sanitary pad ..
pppfft !
luckily Sheila has it ..
well , no wonder my mood was not so gud recently ..
and now im having cramps ..
arrgghh !
i hope im gonna be fine soon ..
coz im mitting dedey later ..

2010-02-08T01:15:00.002+08:00

hello my dearest switharts !
im reali2 busy nowadays
and had no tyme for entertainments ..
i spent my time working , sleeping ..
AND ALSO EATING !
just look at my stomach now ..
sheesssh ~
im soo tired ..
just now i had to work full shift ..
staff coverage ..
and im sick ..
my work is a 6-days work ..
and 1-day off ..
how sad ...
i also had no one to turn to ..
i guess by staying single would be gud enuf ..
i can fool around ..
i just miss having a boify ..
i mean lyke a REAL rship ..
a guy tat showers his love ..
haiiiss ...
when will i have my true love ?
btw , why am tinking bout love ?
i got no tyme for all tis ..
hahah !
ill start being a flirt ..
so , anyone wans to be my valentine ?
(:

2010-01-31T21:27:00.002+08:00

hello darlings !
miss me ?
hehe ..
well , im quite busy nowadays ..
not reali busy but im kinda tired ..
i worked everydae ..
either morning or afternoon shift ..
todae i worked in the morning ..
soo yeaa ..
can have more rest later ..
tml im in the afternoon shift ..
finish at 940 .. :(
and i will be having my off dae on every thursday ..
had fun at work ..
made frens wit two of the full timers there ..
they are much older then me ..
Arifah is 21 .. and Yunira is in her mid 20s ?
but they are okay ! (:

i wanna have my rest soon ..
toodles !

2010-01-31T21:00:00.003+08:00

tag replies ...

to Fika : yea kat bugis .. kdai ACCESSORIZE .. hehe .. rindu aku pe ?

to elle petite : heyy elle !

to faii : hahaha ! ade kosong tapi dorang nak full time dokk .. dorang
taknak part time agy .. nk jmpe jerit jek namer aku ! hehe

to sue : hey there .. just go to any of the shop either at Bugis , Raffles City or Ion
and ask for application form .. (:

2010-01-26T12:30:00.003+08:00

hello lovelies !
konichiwa !
hahaha
i would lyke to share wit u guys tat i got a job !
woohoohooo !!!!
im werking as a sales assistant under Accessorize
at Bugis Junction ...
wanna get a discount ?
feel free to come horr ..
tee hee ..
im so the hapie !
monthly pay of 1k ..
okay lahh .. not soo bad ..
i'll start working on this thursday ..
afternoon shift !
but i nid to report to the HR first at 1145 ..

today planned with Salihin ..
go ECP .. swimming ..
hahhaha !
but dunnoe if im going or not ..
lulu ask me to come down to lamsun later ..
how ehh ?

2010-01-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

feelings ..
problems ..
everything .. i kept it inside ..
i just dunnoe to whom i shud let it out ..
frens ? boify ?
i dun tink they will understand ..
yes they can give me gud advices but ..
hais ..
my family ... its too complicated ..
parents wont understand it ..
they didnt realise tat everything or anything
tat happened between them bring a huge
impact on me ..
they were too selfish ..
im not a young kid anymore ..
maybe last time , i wont understand a single thing ..
but now , im almost 17 ..
and noe wads happening around me ..
since young , i never feel the love and care from
my dad ..
he seldom spend his free time with me , sis and mum ..
he tends to go and do sumting else ..
to me , he only controlled my lyfe and wen he is mad
at me , he tends to beat me up ..
is tat his way by showing love ? care ?
haiiss ..
no wonder mum wanted to leave u ..
im not surprise if mum were to do anything behind ur back ..
but mum , u noe tat it is wrong ryte ?
i noe u love me .. and same goes to me ..
i just hoped tat our family were lyke others ..
or shud i say , i hoped tat my parents were lyke other parents ?
i dun wanna say anything to you guys ..
dun blame me k if i were to do anything bad ..
im 17 , doesnt mean i dun nid ur attention ..
u guys thought tat im soo stubborn , dun wanna listen
to both of u ..
going tru a teenage lyfe wasnt easy ..
to whom i befriends with , i noe who they are ..
i can think wads ryte for me and wads not ryte for me k ..

2010-01-23T17:45:00.002+08:00

hello readers !
im soo bored ryte now ..
met my derder a.k.a. BALA the GALA
just now ..
he came all the way from amk to yew tee
he wanna eat , HUNGRY !
(tak padan kurus ah kau b)
he wanna eat at Burger King ..
soo accompanied him ..
and i also eat lahh ..
(cm tau2 jek kau aku tengah kebulur)
hahaha
after tat, slack under the void deck near
my house ..
and he kept asking me to walk
properly ..
coz i walk , kinda lyke a guy ?
CHOL !
around 5+ , off we go ..
and he gave me a box of ciggs !
how nice of you ..
lol .

kalau aku tau ko gy mane2 nant tak blang aku ,
siap ko !
you stupid BALA ..
dun pinch there next tyme ..
pain siot !
haha .
okay bye !

2010-01-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

now ...
im soo the geram yknow !!!
i know boify got tis course ..
finish at 9 ..
he called me asking me where am i ..
and blah blah blah ..
he told me that he was at home after his course ..
but later on i found out tat he was not at home ..
his sis told aisyah ...
then i called him ..
and he can simply said that he was outside ..
his background was soooooo noisy !
obviously i know where he was at tat moment ...
KARAOKE !
BABI KO B !
KUAR TAK TAU NK CKP NGN AKU ..
KAN DA KENE MAKI JAP DGN AKU ..
issssshhhh !!!
soo i msg him ,
me : kakak ko carik ko tunggu ko alek ..
him : kau peh mulot !!!!
me : ape aku peh mulot ?
him : blg kakak aku , aku kat karaoke asal ??!
me : bler mase aku blg ? aku ckp tmpt ko bising je per !
him : gasak kau lah !
me : ape yg gasak aku ? siak uh . ko gy mane tk ckp ngn
aku ! mane aku tau !
him : iyelah semua salah aku pe !
me : aku tk ckp smue slh ko per !!

after tat he didnt reply me ..
wtf ! sort uhh !

2010-01-15T00:25:00.002+08:00

hello switharts !
firstly , i wanna share wit u all tat
i'm attached to H_ _ _ _ .. *look up*
(sesape yg tau , SHHHHHH !)
hahaah ..
for tis wk straight , i met aisyah super !
and also my boify ..
mummy kept nagging at me coz
she said tat i cant stay put at home ..
but well , at least i go home you know ..
before 11 summore !
haiyaaa ..

okay now im damn bored !
boify slip alreadi ..
pity him ..
tired .. due to waking up so early in the morning
to go to work ..
and pity me too ..
coz he also woke me up !
soo bad !
hmmm ..
ill learn to love you with all my heart k ..
(:
but i dun wanna put on high hopes ..
coz i dun wanna get hurt in the end ..
i hope u'll be the last .. tee hee
*shy*

okay bubye !
i also wanna slip early ..
muahx !

2010-01-12T15:42:00.001+08:00

aku sumpah aku mendak now !
dalah danak rain !
tido pon cantek ..
tpi dun wan lahhh ..
lyke piggy ahh slip slip slip ..
doinks !

okayy lahh !
nak siap-ing ..
mitting aku peh siao siao !
bye !

2010-01-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

hello !
this is a random post ..
im soo bored lah knn !
haiyaa
and summore my 'friend' lai lai ..
=.=

just now went out wit esah ..
go wdlands ..
slack lah knn ..
then wen we wanna go home ,
theres this BUTCH , asking for me number !
lyke wth ?
not interested ..
and i said tat im attached (:

okay bubye ~

2010-01-06T15:05:00.001+08:00

i would like to dedicate this song to
my one and only love , ('insert a name')
AKU WANITA BIASA


Aku ini wanita biasa
Bisa sakit luka karena cinta
Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih hatiku

Kekasih hatiku maafkan aku
Aku wanita biasa

Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih
Hatiku maafkan aku..      

2010-01-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

ive already made up my mind to settle down ..
i wanna live wit love forever ..
i wont hurt love ever again ..
lately , my daes had been an emotional one .
its all truly my fault ..
shud had realised it earlier but
i took 5 fucking daes .
and by the tyme , love was too angry at me ..
i reali do regret it .
when i tink back bout my stupid mistakes ,
i burst into tears ..
wtf had i done ?
i hope tat its not too late for me
to make love trust me back

and i wanted to live happily ever after wit my love ..
with no hindrance between us ..
im old enuf to tink wads the best for me ..
i guess ?
hahaa ..

love ,
i hope tat u will forgive me one dae ..
ill prove u tat ill change for the better
and never repeat my mistakes ever again ..
i reali regret it ..
i realised tat ure the only one tat i love .
love , do u noe tat i love u soo much ??
thank you for giving me the chance to prove myself
and for having soo much patience ..
dun be mad at me again alright ?
u freaked me out .. tee hee ..
i wanna get married to u can ?
i wont wanna let you fly high and made u fall down
down down ever again ..
we shall fly together to the place
where its just the two of us ..
and we shall live happily ever after ..
till our last breath dear ..

2009-12-31T00:52:00.004+08:00

2010 is at ur doorstep ...
always rmber , life is short ..
break the rules ..
forgive and forget quickly ..
love truly ..
laugh uncontrollably ..
and never regret everything tat u had done ..
SOO COME ON PEOPLE ..
LET US START A NEW LYFE !

FUCK THE PAST , KISS THE FUTURE !

HAPIE 2010 SWITHARTS ! (:

2009-12-29T22:04:00.002+08:00

I DUN DESERVE TO HV A BF ..
NURUL NAQIAH IS SUCH A FUCKER ..

i wanna enjoy my lyfe ..
wen im attached and i gave up almost all of my enjoyments ,
guys dun even appreciate it ..
they only point out my mistakes ..
wen i reali do sumting tat surprises them , things tat made them hurt ,
they fucked me upside down ..
i realised tat i got tis ego ..
i just dun understand myself sumtymes ..
i reali love tat person , but i just dunnoe how to show it ..
or izzit tat guy didnt realised it ?

well , i shall hoble back to the real world and stop
thinking bout all tis ..
im sick and tired ..
haiss

2009-12-25T23:27:00.003+08:00

i really didnt mean to do tis to you but well ..
we must sumhow end tis ..
if theres fate , we will be back together ryte ..
if you wanna go around telling people fake storim glad tat im strong enuf to make tis decision ..
i guess im not turning back again ..
i have to move on ..
no hope for our rship ..
well , its for our own good ..
you got the looks ..
find sumone else .ies bout wad
had happened , up to you alryte .. i dun mind ..

okay shuddup !

2009-12-21T01:54:00.001+08:00

boooo !

well , actually i got nuting to post about ..
too tired ..
just now i werk lah knn ..

CONFUSEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD !

2009-12-20T03:25:00.002+08:00

im soo stressed ..
quarelled wit sumone just now ..
just bcoz i didnt reply him for 2hrs and make him worried bout me ..
my batt was flat .. how am i supposed to reply ?
reached hme den reply him .. a simple msg .. coz he said tat he cant reply ..
hmm ..
he said tat i dun understand wat he felt wen i did tat ..
lyke seriously , i dun understand why he had to make tis issue a big matter ..
wen i talk back about wat he ever did , he dun seem to accept it ..
and said tat i always lyke to bring up past matters ..
wth .. he himself did tat , and why cant i ??
and at last , i said tat i wont eva wanna go back to him ..
i guess tat by doin tat , was the right ting ..
i have to move on ..
he dun seem to appreciate me ..
he dun realise tings tat are actuali happening ..
he lied to me , lyke for alot of tymes ?
and i dunnoe why i must keep trusting him ..

now , i realised tat i need to be strong .. firm ..
i cant just believe guys swit talks ..
i cant just give me ..

hais .. dun wanna talk much bout tis matter ..
(crying)

2009-12-20T03:05:00.004+08:00

hello hello hello !!
well , its 3am now and im still not slipping ..

just now went out wit bbygirls ...
planned to surprise anis !
actuali i was soo lazy to go out as you noe i noe la the wheather la knn .. (:
firstly , met fai under my void deck and buy ciggs ..
denn met the rest(fatin, aisya, sof, saf, sya) at lot 1 ..
ate at kfc first as all of us were soo hungry ..
saf and sof bought the cake already so i pay them 2bucks ..
after tat , we proceed to marina barrage ..
we wanna change plan but didnt wan anis to suspect aniting ..
shes wit her boify at tat point of tyme ..

as soon as we reach the rooftop at marina barrage , wat else did you guys expect us to do ?
took pictures lorr ! hahaha
at about 4+, anis came ..
she walk towards us , and we sang a hapie burfdae song to her ..
people ard were watching us but who cares ? haha
she cried and all of us hug herr .
awwwhh ! lyke soo swit la gtuk ..
cut the cake ...
took pictures again and off we go as soon as we looked at the dark cloudy sky !
as we dun wanna get wet ..

we proceed to town , slack at taka's garden ..
and we were screened by the police !
luckily i didnt smoke ! pheww ~
9+ , sof , saf , sya , anis and her boify dcided to go home
soo only left me , fai , fatin and aisya .. and fai's frens was thr too ..
they planned to 'drink' but nehhh ~ hahaha
10+ we chao ~
reached yew tee ard 12 lyke tat ..
bought aiskrim at mac wit fai ..
slack under the void deck jap ..
den go home ..
luckily fai tinggal dkat sbela blk aku jekk !
ade teman .. hahah !

overall , i reali had fun wit them just now ...
ryte bbygirls ? (:
muahx !
wanna see the pictures , go to my facebook okayy ?

2009-12-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

hello people !
just get my results just now ..
i feel lyke crying siol !
see how badly i'hd done ..
but i did try my best ... yea i noe i fool ard too much !
bleaah ~
soo im deciding which course to take ..
retail ? office ? tourism ? or beauty n therapy ?
hmmm ..
ite clementi is my next destination bebeh !
and den transfer to ite cck wen its open ..
tee hee ..
im gonna register soon ..
wish me luck (:

2009-12-17T19:45:00.002+08:00

hello dearest !!

im back again !

its been mths since i update my blog ...

i noe its dead recently ..

but now its alyfe !

k mepek !

well , im too busy wit my own stuffs .. my lyfe , commitment ..

hmm . but now im back !

i guess i shudnt had put too much pressure on myself ..

too much problem attacking me ...

gosshhh !

first of all , i made mummy dissappointed .. VERY !

i created too much problems ..

im soo sorry mum ..

i noe i shudnt had done all tat ..

i just dun understand why ...

no matter wat , I LOVE YOU MUM !

and alot of problems wit love ..

too much hindrance ..

and we tend to misunderstood each other ..

you lied to me , alot of tymes, but nvm .. i forgive u ..

well , dun wanna elaborate much on tat matter ..

feel lyke crying ..

2009 sucks !

year of the sway !

sheeessshhh ~ i cant waet for 2010 ..

and ya , im getting my n results tml !

damn ! im freaking out !

pray hard for me booboo ! muah !

2009-09-12T00:20:00.002+08:00

hello everyone !!

sorry for not updating for quite sumtyme as i was damn busy !

3 papers down !!

and yaa !

i'm werking at ben & jerry's icecream now ..

haha

quite fun luh knn !

2009-08-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

hello sayanggs !

haha ..

went out with zyra , apek n my 'sumone' ..

at first , went bazaar geylang ..

coz tis apek wanna find dendeng ?

hahah !

denn in the evening , we went town ..

eat at Sakura Restaurant ..

zyra n apek treat us ..

woohoo !

we will treat u both next tyme oryte ?

i reali had fun wit them juz now ..

especially wit my 'sumone' ..

took sum pics just now .

but i'm not posting all

as i wont let u guys noe who is my 'sumone' ..

:DDDD

okay bubye !

muuuaah !

any ideas anyone ?

2009-08-28T20:53:00.002+08:00

hello hello !

as you see ..

i'm sooooo bored ryte now ..

seriously ..

thats why i post my last yr's pics ..

pssst ! if you realised , i got rabbit teeth . XD

any ideas wad i can do now anione ?

hmmm ..

currently listening to music ..

and i'm alone at home !

dad went for his usual activity ..

mum went out wit her fwen ..

and sis was mitting her 'sumone' ..

tsk3 !

be lyke me .. stayed at home the whole dae ..

do house chores ... coz i wanna go out tml :DD

wit 'sumone' .. hehe

i'm beginning to love you lyke hell boyyy !

you made fall for you more deeply ..

whats your secret for making me love you lyke soo much bby ? hehe

how i wish we could live our love lyfe without any hindrance ..

with no one around us ..

juz you and me ... awwwww :)

and now ! i'm missing you soo much love !

do you feel the same wae lyke i do ?

i bet you do ! coz you told me !

hahaha !

i'll see you tml love

muuuuaaah !

2009-08-24T22:36:00.003+08:00

i'm missing you soo much boyy

no matter how many guys i contacted wit

you noe tat i still lurf u alot ryte ..

how i wished there were no hindrance between us ..

how i wished i could be perfect .

how i wished we could go through our lyfe togetha

and live happily eva after ..

awww .. :D

well , lets see what is our fate ..

2009-08-22T14:46:00.002+08:00

korang2 .

nie ah-ziq puerto ..

aku stakat nk kasi die hawt kat blog aku jap ..

haha !

cheyy ..

aku suke la kwn ngn die .

die matrep ! bdw nye matrep ! haha

and KIIIIUUUUT !

jgn kembss ~

eh matrep ..

ingat tao ..

slow and steady ..

tk akan terlpas nye .. :DDD

2009-08-22T14:28:00.003+08:00

hello people ..

well , had fun wit dearest babygirls yesterdae ..

planned to go marina barage but at last we went to mt faber .

took alot of pics ..

reali enjoyed wit dem :)

more photos on my facebook aite

http://www.facebook.com/nurul.naqiah?ref=mf#/album.php?aid=2033569&id=1365455085&ref=mf

2009-08-15T16:47:00.002+08:00

i'm goin out soon ..

to woodlands ..

see someone perform ..

supposed to tag along wit lulu and the others

coz kak kimie ajak kuar luh knn ..

but i'm outta $$$$$ !

waliaooo ..

2009-08-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

eventhough theres alot of hindrance between you and me ..

i still do love you much more den i love my ex-es ...

seriously ..

maeb we are just not meant to be together dear ..

how i misses those tyme when we use to spend tyme together

for almost everydae ..

when i said that you had changed , u denied it ..

but its the fact ..

when we are not in a rship , you're wae much better ..

seriously ..

and i truly understand why ..

coz guys are lyke tis when they already get what they wan ..

hmm ..

you made me cry , almost everydae ..

but i dun mind ..

coz i love you ..

you broke ur promises alot of tymes ..

but i forgave you at last ..

i cant bear to see u awae from me ..

and u juz didnt seem to see wads reali inside me ..

mum chilled me down ..

she told me to juz look forward

as i still got a long way to ..

and my right guy will be there , in the future ..

SOO nurul naqiah !

pls move forward and neva eva step a single step backwards alrite !

*SMILES*

yea i'm crazy ! :D

psst .. doesnt mean hes my ex that i juz broke up k ?

2009-08-14T22:06:00.003+08:00

psst ! tis is Lola Bunny and i love her lyke soo much ! :DD
hello everyone !
well .
kinda bored here ..
mum went out wit her fwen ..
left me and sis alone at home ..
wah piang !
i was informed that .....
dad will be back home from Hongkong on Sun 10pm !
2mths .. dad was not here ..
was REALI HAPIE ,but at the mean tyme ..
i missed his 24hrs nagging XD
soo, will be fetching him on Sun at the airport ! haha

oh boyy ..
i'm missing you dearly ...
but den, i wont look back eva again .
i shall hoble back into the present world ..
this relentless pain of mine ..
i shall let it go as the tyme passes by ..
no use for me to go back to you when you cant even do anitink for me ..
i'm sure theres more guys out there tat are much better
than u dear ..
sorry but you must understand why ..
*sobs*
i'm breaking up into tears ..
seriously :'(

2009-08-12T13:46:00.003+08:00

byk la sgt org nk celoteh kat tagboard aku niek ..

nie uh tkde keje nye org ..

psl minah pon nk kecoh ?

prangai lagy rabak dari minah dokk ..

aku tk ganggu hidop org , org ganggu hidop aku ..

kn puas hati tunggu depan skola aku ..

bbl depan2 lao ade byk sgt nk bbl

leceh kn kat tagboard niek ..

haha

lantak korang la nk kate ape ..

malas nk lyn ..

da kene gnie pon aku tknk privatekn blog la

tknk org ckp aku pengecot lak knn

tag la byk2 .. aku tkkn lyn agy okay ?

unwanted tags will be deleted immediately :DD

2009-08-10T16:04:00.004+08:00

yesterdae went out wit gfs ; NDP .. had a really great tyme . but abit cork up :DD

2009-08-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

attention people !

i am a minah !!

hahaha